As part of my 30 Days of Truth, day 5 and 6 ask me to share something I hope to do and something I fear having to do. So here goes …
I have a lot of hopes.
I’d like to complete my Masters in Education. I couldn’t imagine doing it right now as two of my kids are so young at 3 and 4 and require a ton of attention. I can barely prepare and cook dinner with them around never mind having to read or do assignments for school. Don’t even get me started on my soon-to-be teenager! Nope. I’m thinking maybe once my youngest is in school full day I can arrange something. The thing is, I’m not sure what type of Masters in Education to do. I need to research my options and interview fellow colleagues who have already walked this path. I have lots of time to do this.
I’d like to write a children’s book or maybe even a collection of books for children. Something along the lines of the “Fancy Nancy” book collection by Jane O’Connor. Nancy is so darn cute and very, very intelligent. I just need to come up with something that hasn’t been done yet. Got to be creative! I think I have time for this too.
I hope to travel the world someday and visit the many places I have yet to see. Not easy to do as a family of five unless loaded with a lot of mula. That’s a not-so fancy way of saying money. Who’s going to babysit otherwise? If you left them behind with family, you couldn’t travel any longer than a week at a time. You can’t do Europe in a week. Hey, maybe I’ll win the lottery this year!?
I have a lot of fears.
My biggest FEAR ever …the one that surpasses all the others… is leaving this life before I’ve had the chance to finish raising my kids. I’m sure every parent worries about this at some point in their life. Unfortunately, I’ve known and heard of too many parents who have passed on at an early age and left behind young children. It breaks my heart to even think about it let alone fathom how hard it would be on the children who are left parent less. It gives me chills just typing the words. I sure hope I stick around long enough for my kids and grand kids to get to see me look all old and wrinkly! Grand kids need to have their Grandparents around and active in their lives.
I hope never to contract or find out that I have a serious, life-threatening illness, nor do I wish it upon any other member of my extended family.
I fear the day when my parents are no longer with me. I pray that they live long and healthy lives. I will settle for them reaching to 100 years of age and not to pass on any younger than that! I cannot, for the life of me, imagine my life without them around. They are and always will be one of the most important parts of my life. I love you Mom and Dad!
So basically, in a nutshell, all I’m asking is to go back to school to become smarter, write a children’s book to become famous and rich and to travel the world to have seen and lived every almost every culture on Earth. Not too much to ask of myself, is it?
As far as fear is concerned, death or terrible illness is not welcome in my life and needs to stay away from me and everyone I love dearly. I’m pretty darn adamant about this one!
And that’s that …