Tomorrow begins yet another school year for all of us here in the BEES house.
The teen starts high school. Little B begins Kindergarten and Little H embarks on her Preschool years.
I go back to teaching First Grade part-time.
Last year was challenging for me. It was hard trying to balance being a mother, a wife, a teacher and a friend. I found myself struggling at various time throughout the year. I found myself doubting my abilities and feeling incompetent.
“Am I putting in enough time at school? into my profession?”
“Am I giving 100% to my kids at home?”
“Is the house clean?”
“Am I being a loving and supportive spouse?”
Why then, is it so hard to balance life?
Simply put … because I expect too much from myself.
No one really cares if your house is clean or if the laundry is done.
Certainly not your family.
Kids just want love and attention.
As do spouses.
Why then? As a woman, do I always think and feel like there is room for improvement? Why do I want to be super Mom? What’s wrong with being just good Mom?
Being a good Mom is great too, isn’t it?
People, read the book Tuesdays with Morrie by Mitch Albom. It’ll make you see life through a new set of eyes. And although I read the book more than a few years ago, it’s taken me until now to find value in the story.
Simply put, I don’t want to miss out on things in my life that I can’t get back and I need to stop focusing on the things that don’t matter.
I want to “enjoy every stage life throws my way” because “once it’s gone, I can’t get it back”.
I will make the time to just BE with my kids talking, playing, making, laughing and cuddling.
I will be more actively involved at their schools when I can and be okay with the times when I can’t.
I will show them a side of mommy that is more funny and fun and not feel guilty when I’m tired or grumpy or when the house is a disaster.
This year, I’m going to be enough for those I love.
Because deep in my heart, I now believe I am enough.
Love should not be measured by expectation or perfection.
I’m done with all that!
I know I’m not perfect but I AM good enough for those who matter in my life and it’s because I love them.