Since I was a wee girl, I always had dreams of having my own family, teaching my own class and being genuinely happy with myself and my life.
All these things have so easily fallen into my life and I thank GOD everyday for every way I have been blessed.
Now, at 42, I find myself feeling like I need more.
I have a husband who is perfect for me.
I have daughters who offer me love and bring me joy (and exhaustion).
I have a career I am passionate about and love.
Having all this, not only makes me happy but also keeps me so busy I barely have time to breath. Yet, I’m finding more and more as time passes like I want to be doing more with my life.
Don’t get me wrong. I don’t need to be doing more house cleaning. No thanks! I have enough laundry, floor washing and vacuuming to last me a life time.
By more, I mean wanting to do something I love and am good at but that isn’t obligatory in any way like exercise, for example. Although, I really should be doing more of that. *Ahem*.
I do have this lovely blog and I truly love writing for it but I blog more for the simple reason of journal’ing my life as my family grows and changes. My blog has become my memoir. A legacy I want to leave to my girls so they have something of me they can cherish even once I’m gone.
I’m looking for something more than just blogging.
I’ve played around a bit with photography but that lost my interest quite quickly. I love capturing my girls in all of their glory but that’s about where my passion for photography ends.
I’ve thought about taking on a side business like selling a product but, quite honestly, I
hate dislike sales people so I wouldn’t want to be one. I don’t know how to make anything crafty that people would buy and I don’t do home parties.
I’ve thought about going back to teaching full-time but no one in my family wants me to and I like being home part-time with my girls. I love being able to drop them off and pick them up from school and go on field-trips with their class. I don’t want to give up any part of this.
So here I sit … wondering … what can I do with the skills I already have? What do I want to do? What would allow me to still teach part-time and be home with my girls the other part of the time?
This is the question that has been haunting me for months.
This is the question that I need to find an answer for.
I want to do more and I need to find the “more” that would be perfect for me.
Would love your input!