It’s funny how when we’re kids, we see the world one way and then when we become responsible, child-rearing adults … everything changes.
Now that I’m a grown-up (most of the time), I wear mommy shades and see a whole other world I never knew existed.
Sure I saw all of the hard work and effort my mom put into raising my sisters and I.
Sure I saw her grumpy and tired self every now and then.
Sure she lost her patience with us when we would argue over toys, clothes or time in the bathroom.
Sure she never got to go out on any “date nights’ with my dad or spend much quality time together.
Sure she was always cleaning, cooking, washing, folding, organizing and managing
But … she made it all look easy. At least that’s the way I saw it while wearing my kid glasses.
I always said that when I became a mother, I was going to be a kick-ass one. I was going to be cool, fun, laid back and stylish. I was going to be a less grumpy mother than my own. The teenager me swore that I would be the best mom ever.
Silly teenager glasses! Oh how you distorted my perception of reality. Once I was awarded my mommy shades, I learned the real truth about motherhood.
No one ever told me that once I became a mother …
I would never be able to do my business in the bathroom without an audience.
I would never sleep the same or get enough sleep again.
I would never have a moment to myself.
I would be sweeping the kitchen floor 100x a day, picking up toys 50x a day and washing dirty, stinky clothes every day.
I would become physically drained from having to chase after kids all day long and break up fights over toys.
I would become emotionally drained from all the worrying about them.
I would miss adult conversation.
I would have to schedule having a shower.
My stylish wardrobe would consist of jeans and t-shirts.
A trip to the grocery store on my own would feel like winning the lottery.
But most of all, no one told me that once I became a mother … a simple little smile could melt my heart, the cuddles would warm my soul, and watching them grow and change would make me so proud.
I brought these sweethearts into the world and no matter how challenging it all may be and how often I feel like I’m failing at it, my true reward comes from knowing that my girls love me unconditionally – Grumpy Mom or not.